Thursday, July 10, 2014


What an incredible season of life this has been for me. It's new and exciting every day. Elli is learning something new by the minute it seems. She is almost 11 months old and she is crawling, standing (with some help), babbling and even getting out a few words, I got my first kiss on Tuesday, and her personality is busting out! And she's a goof, like her Momma. Surprised?

For 9 years I waited for this season to come. I didn't know what it would look like, but I knew I had a deep desire to be a Mom. Only by the grace of God, I never had the feelings of fear or worry during the long wait, but I did begin to think that His plan may not include having a biological child. We left it in His hands and in that time God opened our hearts to foster care and even adoption. It was a challenging time in our lives, but rich with lessons and opportunities to be used by Him.

In Genesis Rachel was in such despair over her barrenness that she felt like she could physically die. But like many stories in the old testament, through divine intervention there was a miracle that turned that despair into rejoicing! Whether it be the struggle with infertility, a job loss or a struggle with addiction, we can be encouraged that our God is a God of great reversals!

"Then God remembered Rachel; he listened to her and opened her womb." Genesis 30:22

He remembers you. Not always in your timing, but in His-and it's perfect. Be encouraged friends, He is faithful. His plans are far greater than ours could ever be!

Friday, April 18, 2014


Today is Good Friday. I can't help but become emotional when I began to reflect on the meaning of this day. I start to feel guilty for how my sin put him there on that cross. But immediately I'm reminded that Christ died a gruesome, painful death so that I never have to feel guilt or shame. He gave His life so that we may be free from the bondage that sin puts us in. He gave us grace through His death. Grace that covers ALL our sins. And it was free. I didn't have to work for it.

Here's a fact: We will all die. There's no escaping it. Do you want your life to count for nothing? This life is short and the pleasures of this world are not worth the eternal loss. Later in Matthew it says, "For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul?". I'll warn you now, you won't be the most popular. People may even mock you. But Jesus doesn't call us to be liked by everyone, He simply calls us to be faithful. It isn't easy being a Christian, and we will suffer persecution just as Jesus warned in Matthew and John, but the eternal reward is well worth it.

So on this cross, the promises of a Messiah in Scripture is fulfilled. He was nailed or 'pierced' as the prophet Zechariah foretold (Zec 12:10). And it was for YOU. To receive that gift all you have to do is accept it.

"It is finished." John 19:30


ended or completed.
completed or perfected in all details, as a product
polished to the highest degree of excellence

Saturday, April 5, 2014

The Friend Request

I am SO sorry to leave ya hangin' so long! After posting a teaser on all social media accounts, rumors have spread like wild fire!

Nope. Not preggers.

Uh uh. Not moving. Are you kidding me? You will have to pick me up and carry me. I have yet to sit down and count the number of times I've loaded up a U-Haul.

No. Sadly I'm not about to tell you that the sweet girl we fought so hard to save, is coming home to us. But don't stop praying for that one.

And no, we didn't win the lottery. We don't even play-what a waste of money. Please don't tell me you play.

Get to the point you say? I know, Phil hates it when I do this. I usually start telling the story from the end and work backwards. In this case that wouldn't be any fun! Oh you still love my stories...

So I get this friend request on Facebook. The dude shares my last name...Huh. I look at his cover page and I instantly see my late Uncle in him! So I start texting my Mom (cause she's cool like that) asking if she knows who he may be. She begins to think of different possibilities. She has an idea of who it could be! Cool, another cousin. I can always use another cousin!

I shoot him a message.

"Well, I don't know who you are but you sure look just like my Uncle and my Dad!"

Then he says,

"BUDDY? My Mom told me all about him."


"His name is on my birth certificate!"

Complete shock. Phil picks my chin off the ground. I have a brother? I need more facts. (Besides the fact that he looks just like my Dad and all my Uncle's combined.)

I verify these facts by mentioning to my Mother that this dude is claiming to be my bro, and she suddenly remembers a conversation that took place over 30 years ago with my Dad about one of his ex-wives and how they had a son. Uh, Mom, these are stories we're supposed to remember for your future children. To my Mom's defense, she had no plans on marrying my Dad at the time and didn't think much of it. (Oh, Mom.)

So my broski, (can I tell you how much I've always wanted a brother?!) gives me his number and we chat for hours! Exchanging pictures, similarities, videos of our Dad and sometimes sitting in silence in total shock! He found me because our Dad passed away almost 5 years ago and he was able to find his obituary that listed my sister and I as his children. And then there's Facebook! 

That's my Dad. 

SO it's for real. I have a brother! And he has a wife of 17 years and 3 beautiful children. (Not really children though!) This picture is a few years old I think, but it's the only one of all of them together.

I know Dad would have been so proud of him. But I am grateful that one day we will be in Heaven together! As for now, I will enjoy having a brother. What a blessing that he found me. He even laughs like my Dad.

Oh how my life makes me giggle. Never a dull moment!